Now that I am back from a week acting as faculty in Educause's Learning Technology Leadership Program I have been thinking quite a bit about the things that went on around me. You'd almost think as faculty I wouldn't expect to get much out of the experience. I can say that is so far from the truth. In reality I ended up learning more during the week in a leadership role than I have in quite some time.
One of the things I learned (or was reminded of) was what it was like to be the new person in the group. Out of the seven faculty I was one of only two that hadn't been in that role before. I had forgotten how difficult it was to step into that situation ... I am not used to working so hard to find common ground around things I am experienced with. I'm not saying I was on the outside looking in, but I did need to work harder to establish my voice with the group. Upon reflection it has me thinking quite a bit about how hard I need to work to understand this with regard to other people when they are in that situation. Just something I need to spend extra energy on and intend to.
When it was time to work with the team I was assigned to mentor I made a real effort to engage them where they were. I wanted to find a way to ignite some real opportunities to get into the depth of the conversation with them ... I sort of let go of the perceived power position that an Institute like this creates between faculty and participants. I spent a lot of time working to be available to them -- where, when, and how they wanted me to be. I enjoyed their questions and I really appreciated their approach to a very stressful and demanding experience. The participants are put into teams to create a compelling solution to a large institutional challenge over two and a half days. Needless to say it can create a lot of stress for the teams. I took it on to help alleviate that stress by being available to coach them when they needed it. It lead to an amazing few days of work and discovery with some very smart and engaged people. A real treat!
My Team
What I have figured out over the last couple of days was that I needed to do that to overcome my initial feelings of discomfort with my faculty role. I needed to find a way to deeply engage when I wasn't immediately able to do that in my other role. I need to remind myself that my role in situations like the Educause context (and ones across my job at PSU) is one that exists in many dimensions. Finding ways to engage where I could allowed me to energize myself to participate in a more holistic way. Doing one well, lead to new energy and confidence to go after the other areas.
I believe now more than ever that it is critical to listen to your own complaints and work to overcome them. That was something I said to the participants in a faculty panel where we were asked to talk about the things we've learned as we've grown into our leadership positions. I said that early in my career at the University that I was malcontent quite a bit and it wasn't until I started to find ways to address my own complaints on my own terms was I able to participate more completely. As an example, I used to complain that I never got to work with faculty who were motivated to do great things -- that was true until I started to use down time to discover who they were and work to make meaningful conversations happen. Understanding how to address your own complaints is a skill that I believe to be critical as you move through an environment like higher education.
I'll close by saying that I'd like to find ways to engage with people around here a bit more like we did at the event last week. I loved the opportunity to informally talk to the participants about their work and about my own experiences. I learned quite a bit about myself and those around me ... sort of a shame I had to go to Portland to do it. That doesn't mean I can't do the same back home. With that in mind I'll leave an open invitation to get together and talk -- doesn't have to be formal on any level, just looking to find a way to get closer to this around me. Any takers?
Note, this post also appears at my PSU blog. I am sorry for duplicate linking.